Sunday, March 30, 2008

When you just feel it.

I feel like i've screwed it up. Things have been going well so far. We went on a date last night - leafs game followed by dinner. But this morning I woke up and I felt like I had screwed it up and I don't know why. I did get a call today, at around 1. But no response to the text message/call afterwards. I don't know if I'm being paranoid.

I feel sick. I had some toast, but i feel sick. I'm nervous about Tuesday. I don't want it to come, but I also want it to be done and over with. I want this all to go away.

Right now I'm in an awful state of anxiousness. I'm also very bored, which doesn't help. I have nothing to do... I feel like going for a walk but it's getting late so I can't do that. Besides, it's cold. But I feel like i'm suffocating.

I don't know if things with him are done. I don't get whyI feel like this. The clock ticks too slowly.

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