How one night can change your life

It's amazing how one night can change your life. I sit here now, at 1:12 am, Thursday night/Friday morning, and I cannot help but remember where I was exactly one week ago at this hour.

The consequences of that evening have been great. Indeed this has been the most self-imposed, stressful week of my life. So much worry, such life changing events.

A week ago, at 1:13 am, I was in a cell. I always imagined the bars would be a metal colour like in the movies, but in my cell, they were white. White bars, metal toilet, small bed, bright flourescent lighting, and a video camera. Those few hours felt like a lifetime. I just stared at the walls and the little water fountain.

Tonight I'm in my room, staring at my monitor and out the window.

So much has changed and there is so much anxiety that goes with this all. I hope and pray that God gives me strength to get through this.

52 days until my fate is decided.

82 days until I can get behind the wheel again.

Sanity.

I use to post my thoughts up on my own site for years. Then one day I just stopped. I've tried blogging on facebook recently, but cannot anymore.

I hope this works out for me. I need it now, more than ever. This will be my sanity.